I'm Sick

No matter what the outcome of this is, I know that God only plans to make me stronger and closer to him. His will reaches far beyond my mir human questions like, "why now" or "why me." He has given me a love of my life and a family that could never be compared with. My questions aren't for me. It's for them. Do you ever feel like things seem to be the most difficult when life is already scattered with pot holes and road kill?

Perhaps our lives aren't the thing we should be thinking about.

It is after all just a body, on a rock floating in a perfect a black canvas of night that we call "space". We aren't here to make a name for our selves, God Gave us a name to remember (Jesus). Some how that famed death wasn't enough for us to pay soul attention too. This may not be true for everybody, but it is for me most of the time. I'm still working hard on what my life can look like when I take my life out of the picture.

Give me your thoughts.

Definition: Life

Day after day life can feel compiled of more than what one person can bare to handle on their own. Simple things like work, volunteering, love and not to mention our own world of thoughts that come in rouge waves that blow and punch our mind in all directions. Is there a time to throw in the towel? Every day...?

Every part of our lives are supposed to be surrendered to the lord every day of our lives. Most human minds can't comprehend this concept. I struggle with it constantly. Life is a word that symbolizes (to most) as: A time we spend here on earth. But, "Life" means so much more. "Life" should not be confused with "the living." Earth is an amazing creation, and life on earth is another astonishing feat, yet our minds are earthbound minds. Our mind's destination has a habit of completing its journey at the death of a body. This is where surrendering our hearts and minds really comes into play.

Letting go of something is easy to say, but defines us as a "surprise victim" when faced with having to truly let go. Life can mean so much more if we let someone else take the wheel. Surrendering is letting go of the wheel. Giving up the control that we have. The truth is, we never had control in the first place.

What does "life" mean to you now? Is life simply defined as beginning=birth and end=death?